Something from Nothing

This is how I've been feeling lately. I'm no stranger to being between jobs but this one seems to be the worst. I'm not sure how long this season is going to be but I'm doing my best to stay positive. Being in my mid 30's hits different. When I was 20 something it was hard but the world was brighter then. At least to me. Right now, I'm like if the sky breaks open and creatures from another dimension show up I wouldn't be surprised. I don't know if it's my age and realizing that I'm older and not where I thought I'd be. Or the chaos of the world that has me wondering if I should live off the grid or leave the country. The way my funds are set up I might be living in the bushes.

On a lighter note I have my CSM which stands for Certified Scrum Master, I'm learning that in this quest for a tech job they use a lot of letters and you're just suppose to know what they mean. It's weird job hunting now, it's like everything changed. My sister made fun of me saying I may as well go door to door with my resume or look at the news paper for work. I almost got scammed by a fake recruiter. When did this become a thing?! I'm leaving this planet. When it happens it happens I guess. I'm just tired of riding the struggle bus. 

Fun fact, the art of Scrum has molded my life a bit. I'm more organized with my projects and life honestly. It helps you narrow down what's important and holds you accountable. It's like, you have a todo list of everything you want to do withing whatever time frame. I've been doing it daily and I've been pretty productive. Anyway, so you have your list and you decide what you can get done that day. You figure out how long each task will take, you adjust to any bumps in the road as they happen. Reflect about what went well and what didn't go well. Where you can improve and whatever you don't finish can wait till the next day. 

That's basically it. So in theory you would think your girl would be able to pick up a job and help teams get themselves together. NOPE, not at all. They want me to know programing, database management, project management, the Cloud. I'm like, the job description says able to help the team stay focused, protected, aware of improvements and build team bonds. Why do I need to know code? I'm not building anything.

We shall see how this goes, you know I'll keep you updated on my life journeys. Doesn't matter how much time goes by I always come back here. 

Until next time, 

Didd1y