Doing Everything and Nothing

 

Today I caught myself trying to start something impulsively like I do. That's normally how I end up doing half the things I do. This blog was on a whim, my podcast was a random thought and a self dare to see if I could do it. The answer was yes I can. Now I'm in the space where I am so focused and not focused at all. Right now I feel I need to do everything in my power to figure out how to make some money or get a quick job that pays something even if I'll hate it or it won't pay enough. Which is how I became a postal worker.

I caught myself going down the YouTube rabbit hole and found myself watching 20 somethings talking about drop shipping. Which I did think about but never looked deeply into it. Bae told me pump my breaks and focus on the 5 projects you have now. Believe it or not I'm going to start recording again. I published a book yesterday. I had been sitting on if for a while but it's out there now. I was scared to let it go, I worked hard on it. If you can find it on amazon please support. Also please excuse the tables, it was the only way to get straight lines. KDP editor is semi user friendly and the lines I did have were everywhere. I think I linked it on here somewhere. But I'm just in that space that's very you're either going to make a diamond or you're going to crack. The bad part is it's all from me, no one said do all these things. I'm just like this, doing everything and being impatient. 

I wonder if I'm the only one who does this. I doubt it. I just want everything to fall into place sooner rather than later. So I get obsessed and work myself into a mess of nerves and anxiety. **Hard exhale** I just need to remember I'm human and one person. I need Naruto's shadow clone skills, so I can do it all. In time I guess.

Ok I'm done rambling, 

Didd1y