Gravity Count

A few days ago, I got on the scale and my gravity count stated that I had gained a few. In most cases I normally reevaluate my eating habits, try to get back on the horse, and so on. Today however, I found myself feeling not necessarily depressed, but I'm not happy. The people around me in my small social circle having been loosing weight, and eating healthier. I was more bummed at finding out my gravity count went up because I was feeling thin. My clothes were looser, rolls were looking smoother. Until I got on that scale. I'm sure you are thinking, "well Didd1y have you been watching the food you're eating?" Yes. I have been watching the cake and cookies go into my mouth. They've been delicious and I've enjoyed every bite. Unfortunately, those 20lbs I lost 6 months ago are slowly coming back. 

I know how weight loss works. If my intake is more then my burn off, pounds will accumulate. It's just depressing to me that I let myself slip so much. I have my tools to get back on track, I've been down this road too many times. I always thought when I was younger that I would have lost a certain amount of weight. Keeping it off and just be living my adult life skinny. That clearly didn't happen. It has taken me a long time to love my body and to be comfortable in my skin. Even with the stretch marks and the rolls. My main goal has always been to be healthy not necessarily thin. So after getting my count I made the mental decision to re lose this weight.

So like anyone who's about to try to change their life style I began to self sabotage. You know how it is, the last supper. All the goodies you promise to swear off for the next couple of months you eat as a final goodbye. I went for donuts, I ate out of boredom. Purchased food I had no business eating. All the things that got me here. I'm not sorry. Well I'm sort of sorry because I have to undo all the damage.

When I get in the "better yourself" mood I tend to write down the following on my dry erase board so I see it every day: 

"Today I will do my best. I will stay out of my own way to get to my goal. Tomorrow is a new day and I will do better then I did today. I will not punish myself for mistakes or back sliding. And of course I will love myself, flaws and all."

Then I write the steps I plan on taking to reach my goal. In this case I will:

1) Log my food intake. 

2) Train for the 5k, I should have been training for weeks ago. 

I've always been a big girl. All of my life I've been taller then everyone, heavier than everyone. I didn't feel comfortable in my body until my late 20s. Didn't put on a bikini until my 30th birthday which was something I never thought I would have had the confidence to do. If you've ever read anything from my past blog Curvy Girl in an Edible World you'll know a bit of my weight journey and how I've fluctuated over time.

So I set a small goal to lose 20 lbs by my birthday which is in November. If I stick to it I know I can hit the mark if not more. I use this app called Lose It. It's basically a meal logging app. It's free to use with the option of upgrading to premium. With premium you can track water intake, sync your Fitbit and plan meals ahead of time. 

Wish me luck guys, and if you're on your own weight lose journey and feel like you need some extra support or for someone to cheer you on I'm always here. As long as you put in the work and stay positive you can reach your goals and then some.

Thanks again guys for stopping by,

Didd1y.